got me a new drill arbor today D D
only problem is that its got a 1/2" shank and my drill can only take 3/8" or less oh well, time to get a better drill i guess, the one i have only cost me $30 anyway, oh, and i gotta get some slitting saw blades...
but lookout for some new chainmaille pieces coming soon, everythings gonna be much quicker with a motorised saw!

i also got a new car last week, its a secondhand '88 laser
i already managed to flatten the battery O_o
it cost me $1000, but i had to get new tyres, which was $300, and i'm gonna have to get some new driveshafts and a new windscreen...
there goes another $700
and then i have to get it roadworthied and registered, and theres another $500
something i thought would cost me $1500 all up has gone way over budget, might get a credit card to pay for it all, and slowly pay it back
the aussie govt is hopefully gonna give me $900, just as a stooopid 'rescue package', which really wont do crap except pay off peoples mortgages and credit card bills, but if its free for me, i'll gladly take it! but thats not gonna start going out until next month sometime at the earliest

ciao for now

...and now i'm not too sure

well, since i first found out that i had the smiths on my computer, i've listened to almost nothing since, even on my mp3 player. there's just something about the amazing music, the driving drums, the rocking bass guitar, the mellow voice and the lyrics that i can relate to, that just attract me so much to it.

i know it's over, it never really began...

me and my girlfriend broke up, a relationship i thought was kinda serious, especially compared to my laughable previous 'relationships', but in the end it became too stressful, there were some issues we just couldn't resolve.

there is a light and it never goes out...

well, the much awaited show, In His Own Write, has started, the show that i'm doing lighting for. opening night was last night, we have 10 more shows to go before we finish our run. The costumes are absolutely amazing, the set is tremendously versatile, and the lights are a monstrous beast...in a good way.

coyness is nice and coyness can stop you from saying all the things in life you'd like to...

i finally quit my shit old job in fast food, and considering i needed to take time off for my show, i thought that was the best thing to do. but i haven't found a new job yet. the parents think that after a few months i'll still be without a job, and will have dwindled my savings...i think they could be right. i'm still also without a car, so its public transport home at 10pm, which is a fairly new experience for me.

i was only joking when i said by right you should be bludgeoned in your bed - bigmouth strikes again

on a side note, it seems that all the spare time i have after uni, show and sleep is spent absolutely wasted, on anything from facebook to failblog. screw doing homework. and really, i should be getting more sleep.
oh yeah, and i've been to only 2 classes all week. fuck.

one more smiths quote for the road:
nothings changed, i still love you oh i still love you, only slightly, only slightly less than i used to, my love

A lot has happened in the last... 4 months since my last post.

For one, a whole semester of Uni.
Currently studying Bachelor of Engineering, I don't really think that it's my forte, I seem to find it quite dull and sleep through a lot of lectures, but whether thats due to the 8am lectures, 21 contact hours and 1 hour minimum travel time or the lack of interesting-ness due to lectures that can't speak real English, I really couldn't decide... I'll most likely change into a Science major next year, but I might do Science/Engineering, that might be more profitable.
It's currently exam period, I've had three exams in the past four days, and another one next week. May have failed a couple of subjects *pensive look*

Which brings me to something else...I have a girlfriend now! Her name is Zoe, she's equally as crazy as me and I guess, most importantly, she loves chainmaille, oh, and me of course She plays the trumpet, likes Jazz music, and loves medieval things as much as I do. I might have to keep her away from sharp pointy things. She's doing a bachelor of Science. I met her on one of the first days of uni, it was the 21st of Feb, and we've been dating since the 27th of April. When we met, she immediately declared me to be her new best friend, on account of the maille that I was making and just happened to be carrying around. She will be my hot, gorgeous model for all things maille She lives up in Mount Waverley, which is a bit of a distance with just public transport, but exams means that we don't get to hang out together at uni. Oh well, that just means more sleepovers.

Which brings me to another thing: I got, and killed, a car. It's a pity, since she was a pretty good car, as far as old bombs can go, she was a white auto 1988 Toyota Corolla Seca, the benefit is that I no longer have to pay for petrol, which is good considering work is screwing me around, not giving me any shifts, therefore not being able to afford petrol...
Anyway, I was driving home from an afterparty, it was 5am-ish, I'd been up on minimal sleep for the past 2 weeks, and hadn't slept in 24 hours. Fell asleep...drifted into the side barrier on the freeway, and spun out across the road. I'm told that I'm very lucky that I hit where I did, or I could have been very, very injured. Luckily, I walked away without a scratch, but the car had chassis damage and a broken axle. Written off, the first of what will most likely, though unfortunately, be many.

The reason I'd been up so late for so long was because for the preceding 2 weeks I had been doing lighting (I was the assistant lighting designer/operator) for Anthony Burgess' "A Clockwork Orange - a play with music" performed by the Monash Uni Student Theatre. The show was a great success, but unfortunately the late nights and 8am lectures played havoc with my sleeping, and it was the Closing Night afterparty that I was driving from.
Fleur, one of the awesome chicks from MUST is directing "In His Own Write - The Lennon Play", and she has nabbed me to be the lighting operator for that show. It should be lots of fun, its running sometime next semester.

Anyway, that's the main points of my life in the last four months...hard to think that its only been 4 months with all thats been going on, but it's been fun for the majority, despite the huge hectic-ness of it.

Weeeelll...

to put it bluntly, no beating around the bush, today was my first day at uni. that would be monash uni, clayton campus. just orientation though, classes don't start until next week. doing a bachelor of engineering

today was quite compulsory, even though there was nothing 'life or death' that happened, really.
the only real main reason we had to go was because of the 'campus welcome', which i guess wasn't so bad. it was the 'first vice-chancellors welcome with no vice chancellor', because he was coming back from the monash campus in south africa.

anyways, way before that even happened, i had a fair bit of time to kill...say, 90 minutes...and there were some posters/flyers whatever here and there about sign-ups and auditions for...the Monash University Student Theatre, both backstage crew, and for roles. so i head over to their office, sign up for backstage, and just as i finish, a girl comes walking out, spots me signing up, exclaims 'awesome!' introduces herself and drags me around, through to their performance hall, introducing me to everyone as 'a new tech' which they were all pretty excited about. Their hall is this wonderful little place, only room for maybe about 50 or so people on the seats, with lighting racks all across the roof, in a squarish criss-cross, and a balcony over one side, from where they run all the equipment. so it appears that this club, that i wasn't really too sure what would happen about, has already taken me under their wing . anyways, this semester/term they're performing the picture of dorian grey, clockwork orange, and a few other things, so i'll HAVE to get involved somewhere...

then after that, and after i started talking in long, dull sentences...was the welcome, and after that was the very limited 'faculty related' tour...there was only 3 stops, and most people should have known them already.

after that i just sorta bummed around a bit, got some lunch, logged on to the uni network, did some other dull things...you know, being under 18, i'm not allowed to access the internet? well, at least not without a parental permission form! how stupid, old enough to go to uni, but not old enough to use the net? and it seems to suck even more, because my 18th is just 7 days away!

on another note (geez, how many ways can there be to change topic? not enough!) i just received my timetable...it's customizable, to a point, and its arranged so that i have monday completely off! but then i have to start at 8am, wed-fri. might do a little bit of swapping and stuff...no one will notice/care!

umm...okay, after that long, dull post, i think it's time to say goodnight to everybody, and that at this time, my ramblings might be a little confuzzled, so i may be back to change things later

Sitting awake, late at night, or early in the morning, whichever you prefer, several long and enjoyable days behind, managing to cope somehow with the surmounting troubles of less and less sleep, things running through your mind, scenes, movies, songs, things seem to take a different meaning.
What otherwise was just another thing can inspire you, or fill you with hopelessness, emotions travel wildly, happy, sad, dread, for whats happened, what will happen, what may happen, knowing something has to change to maintain sanity, health. Knowing some things will happen, that will cause grief.
Love, anger, frustration, distant for family, friends.
Surreal moments, is it a dream? Would that make it better, worse?
Comfort, complacence, regret, insecure, for the situation that you're in
Losing touch
Inspiration comes at the strangest times, the strangest forms.